I don't know.

[It's an answer that surprises him yet again (thanks Steinbeck!) and he's hesitant to keep going...

But he supposes, if he says anything intensely foolish... at least Ellis isn't the worst person here that could hear it.]

I'm not used to being able to do anything by myself. It's never been my purpose. Not having a master to have a use for me just makes me feel more lost than happy.

But I like that I don't have as much to be scared about here, being free.