[Syrlya, too, looks away, deciding he doesn't want to see Trahearne's (Adelis') face if he decides to look back over.]
What good did it do? The first thing you wondered was whether it meant that I was cheating. I... felt your betrayal, when you were talking to him.
[It's hard for him to imagine it going any other way when the concern was his loyalty, first, feelings second. It hurt Trahearne. And for all he says he was wrong... will he not just have the same reaction again? To holding hands?]
I do not want to have feelings for him. It is not something I have been fueling.
[They had always been something he held carefully out of mind, as acknowledging them too long was uncomfortable. He wishes he could have carried this secret to his grave.]
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What good did it do? The first thing you wondered was whether it meant that I was cheating. I... felt your betrayal, when you were talking to him.
[It's hard for him to imagine it going any other way when the concern was his loyalty, first, feelings second. It hurt Trahearne. And for all he says he was wrong... will he not just have the same reaction again? To holding hands?]
I do not want to have feelings for him. It is not something I have been fueling.
[They had always been something he held carefully out of mind, as acknowledging them too long was uncomfortable. He wishes he could have carried this secret to his grave.]