Of course it hurts. There's very few ways to die that don't hurt.

[If you have awareness of what's happening, dying sucks up until it doesn't. Up until you can't feel what's happening, it's terrible.

But you get used to it, after your hundredth time, and you stop caring about the pain all together after your thousandth.]

I would rather die then live under someone - or something - else's thumb, though. I'm not going to cooperate with her, and she should have known that before she brought me here.