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crescentview2023-02-20 05:34 am
irresponsibly) wrote in crescentview2023-02-20 05:34 am
karaoke party!
Who: Lucia and you!
What: Karaoke Party Time
When: Fall 20
Where: Cozy Kitchen
Warnings: n/a for now
[ On Fall 15th, a notice goes up on the noticeboard advertising a karaoke party at Cozy Kitchen on Fall 20th. It may be easy to miss with all of the pirate chaos, but Lucia will put a sign at the front of the restaurant to remind her fellow farmers of the event.
When Fall 20th rolls around, the smell of Lucia's food can be smelled from outside in town square. One may also catch another redhead bringing alcohol from his winery into the restaurant, or people from the other neighboring bar moving equipment into Cozy Kitchen. When everything's said and done, the restaurant is left with a nice evening setup. It's a small-ish space but there is plenty of food and alcohol for people to indulge in, as well as non-alcoholic drinks like tea and water. The karaoke machine is set up, and there are board games from the store that people can play while they're here.
People are free to sing, open mic style, as many times as they'd like. At some point during the party, however, Lucia will make it a point to play some slower songs on the machine and cite that it's been a while since the dance in Spring. Now might be a good chance to get one last dance in with someone before Winter hits! Finally, party games will be inevitable, so go ahead and participate or run your own. ]
What: Karaoke Party Time
When: Fall 20
Where: Cozy Kitchen
Warnings: n/a for now
[ On Fall 15th, a notice goes up on the noticeboard advertising a karaoke party at Cozy Kitchen on Fall 20th. It may be easy to miss with all of the pirate chaos, but Lucia will put a sign at the front of the restaurant to remind her fellow farmers of the event.
When Fall 20th rolls around, the smell of Lucia's food can be smelled from outside in town square. One may also catch another redhead bringing alcohol from his winery into the restaurant, or people from the other neighboring bar moving equipment into Cozy Kitchen. When everything's said and done, the restaurant is left with a nice evening setup. It's a small-ish space but there is plenty of food and alcohol for people to indulge in, as well as non-alcoholic drinks like tea and water. The karaoke machine is set up, and there are board games from the store that people can play while they're here.
People are free to sing, open mic style, as many times as they'd like. At some point during the party, however, Lucia will make it a point to play some slower songs on the machine and cite that it's been a while since the dance in Spring. Now might be a good chance to get one last dance in with someone before Winter hits! Finally, party games will be inevitable, so go ahead and participate or run your own. ]
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Trahearne thinks, for a long time, as he always does. Syrlya wonders if he can count out all the thoughts that cross Trahearne's mind that he won't actually reveal after all.
He peels back, just enough out of the hold to look up at Trahearne.] Does it upset you I have affections for Adelis?
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Adelis? Not particularly. I don't know him well, but I have nothing against him personally. All I can say is that he must be a good person if you two are close.
[ That is true, evident by the measured calm among the guilt and the distress.
He wishes he could take it back. If only the goddess had never chosen him to-- ]
I was...shocked. That's all. I realise now that I had no reason to be. This is all fresh and new and I--I don't know what I'm doing. I should not have brought it up. It is not my business.
[ His eyes drop. He wants to apologize again, but he knows that won't fix anything. ]
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Is it wrong, no matter his intentions, if he likes it?
...
He can see Trahearne pulling inward. It's the opposite of what he wants, even if what Trahearne really has to say will hurt.
But Trahearne won't tell him. Syrlya has to claw answers out of half-responses and feelings he won't verbalize. He was hurt enough, did not trust Syrlya enough, to actually ask. But he won't follow through with it, and Syrlya...
Syrlya's gaze hits the floor.] ... Mm.
[He feels a bit numb, as the unpleasant realizations settle in.]
I--I think I may turn in early. I'm very tired, but you could continue to enjoy the gathering.
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[ That answer comes with conviction. His grip tightens a little on his clothes, as though trying to get him to look up again.
He feels terrible, like he's ruined what was supposed to be a nice outing. All he ever does is ruin things for them, it seems like. He's trying to figure out how to navigate this, but every pang of hurt he feels from Syrlya throws him off, and that's all he ever seems capable of doing. He wishes he knew what to say to get him to open up once he shuts down like this. He wishes Syrlya would tell him what he wants. ]
If you're leaving, then let me walk you home.
[ Even if it is in silence. ]
I insist.
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But it will probably be in silence.]
maybe a multiparter? maybe a multiparter
They walk in silence for a while to begin with, but it doesn't...feel good. Trahearne feels like he messed up. He feels like maybe he didn't explain himself well enough. That his feelings didn't come out of nowhere, that he doesn't arbitrarily not trust Syrlya. They have been through so much together, but romance and feelings are...new for him.
At some point in their walk, Traherane begins to speak quietly. ]
When we went on our walk on our weekend getaway through the woods, I remember looking down from the stars to see the most beautiful sight I had ever seen. That was you.
[ He looks up at the overcast sky, mimicking the same actions he took that same day. ]
I realise now, as I've gotten to know you better as...a lover, that I should have asked to kiss you, or preluded it with anything, but I did not know.
So I did not know what to think when you froze, when I felt nothing from you. I thought I'd misread. That you were not as fond of me as I, you. And those fears, my...anxiety lead to those nightmares. One of which you saw.
[ His eyes drop again, focusing on the road ahead. ]
I know you don't hate me, or think I don't deserve a second chance at life. And I hold you to absolutely no fault. You are not responsible for my poor control over my emotions. That's... That something I need to work on.
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One of those nightmares was of...of Mordremoth's hold on me. [ He gulps. He still can't think of the jungle dragon without deep fear, panic gripping his chest. He pauses, and lets the feeling pass. That is also something that probably needs addressing, but...not now. ]
It was later, at Lord van Ziek's meeting, that I met Mishka, and learned he was the one who shared in that nightmare with me. It was also then that I learned of his affliction, his affections for Adelis. With that and all the wine, I was feeling...raw. So when I saw you and Adelis holding hands, I assumed my chance had slipped away.
I assumed wrong, of course. I know in hindsight I should have talked to you, instead of getting...swept away in my own emotions. But like I said, I realise this is a weakness of mine.
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That thought cuts off as he realizes the timeline, straightening up with wider eyes at the memory of Mishka, wooing him at the meeting. A dream about loving you was--actually shared from Trahearne?
... That actually makes a lot more sense, all in all. But he sure did kiss him like he meant it.
Syrlya shakes his head, reaching for Trahearne's hand as he comes to a stop. Waits for him to turn and focus on Syrlya as he stares up with a serious expression.]
Trahearne, I am going to make you my priority. [Nobody else will matter. If that means he has to push Adelis away to protect Trahearne's heart then...
then...
...]
I love you, and I intend to show you that until there isn't a doubt in your mind that I'm yours.
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Hearing him say I love you will always have a special sort of power over him; if he had a heart, it would have skipped a beat.
His tone, though, startles him a little. ]
I love you, too, Syrlya. [ There's something about his tone, his demeanor, that does not bode well in his mind. He frowns.
But he squeezes his hand, a sign of reassurance, and, in a way, trust. ]
I just--I just wanted to tell you where I'm coming from. Even though I realise it's irrational. And that I have no reason to have ever let these doubts consume me.
[ He purses his lips. ]
Please don't hurt yourself, or Adelis. I don't want that.
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Perhaps he can't completely avoid hurting himself. But that, he tucks close to his chest before Trahearne finds it as something to blame himself for, too.]
I'm glad you told me. I want you to be open with me. It helps me know if I have unwittingly hurt you in some way.
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When I think about it, it feels more as though I'm finding ways to hurt myself.
[ Creating roadblocks for himself...much like he did his Wyld Hunt. And a lot of other things in his life. ]
I will...try to be better. I... I think you're perfect, Syrlya. I love you just the way you are.
[ All your pain and your flaws--everything. ]
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So his hand snakes up, to cradles Trahearne's face as he stands on his toes to kiss him. Perhaps, just to silence him.]
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But this just serves as positive reinforcement. Trahearne leans into the kiss, hands resting on Syrlya's hips.
And when he pulls back, his eyes are softer, a lot of the emotional distress from earlier gone. ]
You are kindhearted, and I know you care deeply for those around you. Adelis is your friend. If he trusts you to help him, then you should.
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Syrlya offers a faint smile. This is a start. He can fix things. He can keep Adelis as just a friend without hurting Trahearne.
He's got an idea.
But that discussion will wait another day. For now... he actually, really does just want to go home.]