a catchall through the end: fall and winter

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WHO: Kaspar Blumlund + others
WHAT: some ota, some closed. auction date and effects prompts, whatever makes sense to put here
WHEN: throughout February-March
WHERE: varies
WARNINGS: mind the headers


autumn
plotting | event
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Comments

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[He definitely gets that reflexive avoidance, an almost instinctive urge to reject this kindness. Isn't Kaspar mad at him?? He shouldn't-

But he is. He relaxes, slightly, tension holding him back from breaking down and sinking into that hold completely; tension that is generated from the ugly voice in the back of his brain reminding him he doesn't deserve this.]

... I hardly understand why.

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Because I care about you, cross or not.

[ Kaspar isn't shy about using his strength here to hold the other man against him. ]

...do you believe my affections so easily ended?

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[Very attractive of him to be very strong.]

My behavior has alienated me from everyone else in my life, I assumed it was only a matter of time.
[But then... he'd thought such of Gregson, but that photo he'd kept on his desk...]

... Part of me felt your affections were too good to be true, I think.
[Kaspar really has only the one minor flaw of being too softspoken, otherwise he's perfect??]

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[ Kaspar sighs against him, relaxing with a hand sliding to his hair. He hadn't thought pressing this close through first. Now that the urgency ebbs, Kaspar is still overly warm, melting slightly into him despite himself. ]

... I do not know what I am doing.

But my feelings for you have, persisted.

[ Kaspar's grip tightens, fingers curling. ] Should they end, would we not still have... friendship?

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[Kas's previous comment had suggested this was the case, having it said plainly still catches van Zieks off guard.]

I-Yes of course, but... you...
[It's hard to really get out of sorts when Kaspar is holding him like this. He almost gets lost in it for a moment but then forces himself to gently push Kaspar away, just enough to look him in the eyes properly.]

But if that's the case, then... would it not still be possible for me to ask to take you on a date?
[It is clearly taking all of his wherewithal to say that plainly and not immediately look away from him.]

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[ Kaspar doesn't fight the gentle push, but he does not release him if he isn't forced into it. ]

Ask me again, after tonight.

[ He answers honestly, but goes on without looking away from him. Half lidded eyes, cloudy fondness in their light blue glow, are hard to read. ]

Neither of our bids were lightly made. No matter what you believe of my convictions.

[ That comment had hurt too, he doesn't try to hide it. ]